another chapter folds

everything will come to an end...even with my relationship with ros...

ros and i are finally over...

there wont be a second part...it's just a first part and that's it...

we talked after we broke up. i wanted to learn some things. we opened up, bent our frustrations on each other, and tried to understand each other. in the end, we both got what we wanted and ended any possible idea that we could ever be back together. we both have our faults.

yet for my part, i wasn't really satisfied as much as i wanted. there were still some things i wanted to know but she wouldn't say. but i didn't push it on, knowing pursuing it would be fruitless.

but for some reason, when i woke up after that conversation, i couldn't feel for her anything anymore. i finally lost that reason why i held on to everything during our relationship: love. it's as if everything i felt for her before went flushing out of my system. then just like that, i don't love her anymore. and i finally admitted to myself that i'll never be the kind of guy she wants. nor can she change me to become what she wants me to be.

but don't get me wrong. i wouldn't say i wasted 4 months of my life with ros. i didn't. i loved her with all my heart and i felt the same way from her too. we've had the best of times during the first 2 months before having the turbulent times which ended our relationship. yeah i felt being loved. ros showed me that.

ros is not a bad person. she has so many good traits. it just that her bad side got the worst of her. yet still, she's a survivor. she always has and always will be. and maybe that's the reason i fell for her at the start. that she's one hell of a survivor. and she'll survive this. maybe even faster than i did.

now, as i write this post, i began to reminicse again about the good times i had with ros. the dating in ragnarok, the ym chats, the ragnarok marraiges, my trip to bacolod, my conversation with her mom, the fights, everything that i could remember. it's sad that it had to end but it was for the best.

another chapter of my life has finally come to a close...yet so many chapters has yet to happen...


Angels or Devils
Dishwalla

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold