What I learned

A few days ago, a friend asked why my ex and I broke up. At first, I hesitated. Not because of how many times I had to explain before this to other people but rather, I thought of my ex and wondered what she was saying to her friends if she was asked the same question.

Yeah, I know it's kinda wierd but that just happened to me. Then looking back the numerous times I tried to explain, I was kinda surprised to learn that I never really was really bitter about the whole thing. In fact, I felt relieved that our relationship ended.

To people who see us, we were a normal couple. Sweet and happy. But those who knew us knew we were having trouble during the last few months of our relationship. It became really bad that when going home, we looked more like friends that as lovers as we were suppose tobe. And it was really hard for both of us. We knew it was about to end but neither of us would make the move to break up.

Then suddenly around February, she texted me, telling me that she wanted to break up. I accepted. The first week after our break up was the hardest for me. I had to go to the office everyday, knowing that I'll be seeing her. Yet, it was on the fifth day when the tension between us was broken. We talked. We realized that this wasn't suppose to happen. The tension, I mean. Then the week after, we started talking again, acting like the Lover Combo never really happened. Eventually, we became good friends and our relationship was way better than it was when we were still together.

So I simply just said to my friend who asked, "I guess there are some things in life there are not meant to be." When I thought about what I said, I knew I was right. I'm glad my ex came to my life. I learned a lot of things. I grew up a bit more. And became a person person to myself.

I still care about her, although it's more of being a concerned friend. I love her still but now just as someone who I see now as a barkada. I never really thought about going back because I knew that it would never be again and because we're having so much fun being just friend.

Now, I'm satisfied being single. If there's someone who'll come in my way, why not? But while she's still not there, I just wanna have fun :)