90%, 10%

Friday night, I was drunk again. I had to stay another 30 minutes to drink coffee just to take out my amats. But at least going home, I was with my officemates. And yeah, I got home safe.

The next day, I woke up with a minor hangover with no intention of going out or maybe accompany my sister to the gym so that I could work out.

Then, my ex girlfriend called me up. She was applying for another job in Quezon City and wanted to have lunch with me. At first, I decline because of this lingering hangover I had. And driving from Antipolo to Quezon City wasn't a joke on gas and driving. Then she made tampo, which led me no choice but to go.

But I was glad I changed my mind. I won't go into details anymore but one thing I love about this ex of mine is that she probably knows me more than anyone I know, maybe including myself. After telling her about what happened to me and Jane, she quickly pointed out things to me. I was shocked in some ways. I have been doing it in relationship without ever noticing it.

Then after my talk, she began telling me about her life with her new family. She compared it with her younger single days and told me how hard it was for her to adjust to the really poor life. The two things right now that makes her keep on going are her husband and her baby.

After that, we went around Trinoma to window shop and left the mall around 5pm. I brought her to the MRT station in cubao and went home afterwards.

I reflected on everything we talked about. How easy it was for her to see through me and how easy it was for her to make me listen to her. The talk with her made understand myself even more and what happened to my relationship with Jane

I messed up big time with Jane. There's no way I can go back now and try to fix things. She may never get over that phobia of me.

It's really time to move on.

I guess my ex-girlfriend said it best about this:

"Eggie, you're 90% great and 10% not so great when it comes to relationship. Concentrate on trying to change that one bad thing that became a pattern in your relationship and apply it the time comes a new girl comes into your life."