Total Frustrations

Now my world is upside down. Everything I do now is wrong. I'm really down right now that I don't know what to do. I can't think straight and all I can say is "My God! How did this happen to me??"

It's really frustrating. Now I'm even scared to do something about my life. I'm really close to tears now...

I've never been this down for a long time. Is this because of the "mid-life crisis" I'm in? Or just simply the frustration of not knowing what to do? Whatever the case is, my life right now is pretty fucked up.

A month ago, I thought things would turn around for me, from being just happy to the happiest person in the world. Now, I'm down, down to the lowest point I could get.

I'll stop here muna. The more I right, the more I can't hold my tears anymore.