Saving face... and regretting it

I have two stories to tell today. Both of them happened last night.

My first story is about this experience with a couple.

This story goes way back in 2003. Emmy (not her real name) used to play in the same computer shop as I did back then. I was one of the few people who got close to her. Though I found her cute, I still loved my ex that time and wasn't even thinking about cheating behind her back. Instead, Emmy and I became close like hell. We would text each other a lot, play at the same time in the shop, have dinner, etc.

Then one night, it was just me and her. We were drinking in her house (her mom is usually away because of work), letting our depression out. That time, I was depressed with the breakup with my ex, she also experienced the same thing. Then, after several bottles and tears, the unexpected happened...

A few month later, she hooked up with a regular from the shop and after learning about it, I told her never ever tell her what happened between us because it might spill bad blood between me and mau (not his real name). She agreed.

But unfortunately, she still told mau about us and that lead to this unreasonable jealousy that I only knew just a month ago (note: they've been together for almost 4years now).

Years later, Emmy and I tried to keep in touch as much as we can. We go out at times, usualy with Mau and one time, she came to visit me at my office. It's like we're both looking out for each other.

Then just last month, something really bad happened. Emmy called me up. I was wondering what was wrong that time. She said she caught Mau red handed. I wasn't surprised because Mau is a player. I've known this even before they were together. So I consoled her and stuff and hopefully, things would get better.

But it didn't.

Emmy became unreasonably intolerable. She kept texting and calling me up. She even went to my house without me even knowing it. She slept at my room despite my disapproval and wanted me to sleep beside her. But I tried to keep my patient at a calm level. I was thinking about other stuff as well, like Jane that time.

Mau learned about this thing and eventually could not hold on his anger anymore. This led to 2 fights, with me taking the beating. I didn't want to fight.

Then I learned about Mau's jealousy towards me and the fact that Emmy is pregnant. I somehow became involved in a situation I wasn't suppose to be in.

I told them not to get me involved too much about their problems. It should be them who should solve it. But that didn't happen.

A few days ago, Emmy again left her house to sleep in mine for 2 nights. Despite my protest, my mom insisted that she stay. The day after, I brought Emmy home and made her promise not to bother me again. That night, Mau came to my house, which lead to a shouting match that my mom had to come out and made Mau leave. It was really ugly.

The last night, Emmy and Mike were together. They wanted to talk. I was really pissed at both of them for even coming to my house. I told them there's nothing to be talked about anymore and that they should already leave before I call the security to make them leave.

But they insisted on staying because they felt they needed to talk to me. Without thinking, I told them that I had a girlfriend who already knew about the situation and is really angry about it. I told them that what they're doing now is really unreasonable already.

At first, they didn't believe me for having a girlfriend. But when Emmy saw the pix in my fone and when they saw me in the verge of tears, they eventually backed out. They apologize for everything but they still wanted to talk. I told them next time because I was facing problems also.

Then after a few minutes, they left.

What picture they saw? It was a couple pick with me and a girl.

Now, when I think about it, I deeply regretted using her just to make Emmy and Mau leave my house. I texted her, tried to call her up without any success. Even up to now, she hasn't replied to any of my apologies.

Then I let her be.

It was my fault. I was saving face but deeply regretted ever doing it. I thought it was the best way but the one I used was maybe pissed about it.

I'm sorry...