Waking up... Hopefully...

Though I should not interfere, I can't help but do so upon seeing Abby's face. I saw her really tired and sad face. Tired from understanding her boyfriend. Tired from everything. Then for some reason, I became afraid again... I had to talk to Kris (not his real name), her boyfriend.

Since I was on leave, I had a lot of time to think what to say to him. And since face to face talk was kinda impossible, I figured that the next best way to talk was through the messenger.

Around 8am, I texted him, asking him if he could go online this afternoon. He asked why. I didn't really say to him that much that time except I needed someone to talk to (Although I wasn't in the mood to talk about my problems). He agreed. So we were set to talk after lunch.

Before that, I wanted to ask Abby permission to talk to him since last night, she never replied about it. But for some reason, I had to do this... for everyone's sake. Yes, including mine.

Then 1pm came, I texted him that I was already online.

We started our chat with the simple things first. You know. Making up for last time. The last time I got to talk to this guy was a few months ago so he told me his stuff and I told him mine.

Then the time came he mentioned Abby's name. I knew I had to talk to him about it. So I told him "Now that you've mentioned Abby, let's talk about her. But before I do, I want you to promise me two things." And I gave him the two condition in which he agreed upon.

Then I told him everything. How I really felt about Abby. How she knows about my feelings for her but could only see me as a friend. How I was really frustrated about this and the fact that Kris, being the lucky guy, not being able to do something about their problem even frustrates me more. I didn't leave anything except for the Jane issue. I made sure that I said evertything because I wanted Kris to wake up to whatever his problem was and start doing something about it. I wanted them to be together finally.

Because I love Abby dearly..

At the end of our conversation, he thanked me for the talk and will do whatever he can to salvage their failing relationship. I told him that if he didn't do anything, I might do what I've been wanting to do way before: to court Abby.

He didn't get mad at me. He totally understand how I felt about Abby. Abby was easy to love. She's the type of person you want to bring home to show to Mother. And yeah, there's her smile. That amazing smile..

In the end, I promise Kris something, as long as he did his part. So now, it's up to him to do his part of the bargain.

After all these, I read our chat again. What the hell was I doing??? I was helping the boyfriend to make up with the girl I love.

Then it suddenly occurred to me that I was also doing this for my own sake. I was really afraid.

Why I did it? Simple. Because I love Abby.. And because I want her to be happy.